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If only more people knew about the emotional whiplash of trans healthcare
Queer Gaze Transgender

If only more people knew about the emotional whiplash of trans healthcare

 SHE/HER Queer autistic trans woman  Kestral Gaian Writer, performer, general nerd, cat mum

I first came out as trans when I was 27, but a decade later - I’m still waiting for treatment.

All I seem to see is feel-good storied about how quick transition can be – so why isn’t mine?

A few weeks ago, noted actress Abigail Thorn wrote about her experiences in the Metro, a year after publicly coming out.

“My body became a home rather than a vehicle for commuting in”, she said. A sentiment mirrored by countless other trans people. So why is my experience so different?

Some days my body feels less like a temple, and more like a slow-moving train en route to Grimsby.

The more I dug away at these feelings, the more I uncovered the hidden costs of the UK’s trans healthcare crisis.

I got a prescription from the Gender Identity Clinic for Hormone Replacement Therapy two-thousand days ago.

I’ve asked several times for more support – for hair removal, voice therapy, surgery consultations and counselling.

All of these have been met with an enthusiastic “yes,” followed by a heart-breaking “but…”

Waiting lists are long, even once you’re in the system. Over six years after my first appointment I’ve still got nothing more than basic hormones.

The transgender community talks a lot about waiting lists and barriers to entry. But it’s more than that:

The clinic holds my life in its hands.

What we don’t discuss is the emotional whiplash people get after the elation of the first appointment or prescription, only to be left high and dry, with no additional support.

With the LGBTQIA+ community more prone to poverty and homelessness, going private simply isn’t an option for the vast majority. It certainly isn’t for me. Recent Stonewall research shows COVID-19 has only made this worse.

Medical intervention isn’t for everyone, and should never be used as an indication of whether someone is ‘trans enough’.

But access to good transgender healthcare is proven time and again to be life-saving. We need it now.

Positive stories like Abigail Thorn’s are important. They’re hugely life-affirming and show us how amazing life thriving as a trans person in the public eye looks.

But we need to balance this with the vulnerable side of life as a trans person.

Let’s share our stories of positive affirmation and transition goals. Voice our frustration about the lack of continuity of care.

Let’s come together and tell cis people – who don’t know the joy or the pain of trans existence – how life-saving healthcare reform could be.

And who knows? If we do this together, maybe by the time I’m 40, things will have changed: I’ll have heard back from the clinic that holds my life in its hands.

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 @Kestradiol @LaCrecerelle  Writing, performing, volunteering, mixing metaphors, shouting at inequality. Changemaker. Chronic Overachiever.   SHE/HER Queer autistic trans woman  Kestral Gaian Writer, performer, general nerd, cat mum

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